Cryptic

*sigh*

Maybe... maybe not...
I'm fed up of being assumed to be the bad guy. I don't want to have people round me who are so ready to think the worst. I've done... questionable things, as Roy Batty might say, but always with the best intent. I'm clumsy & ham-fisted, and interpret many things literally, so if you say you want something & I get it, I'll be disappointed if you actively dislike that I've got it. If you throw me aside after 2 years, I'll thrash around in pain for a bit. It hurts. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with people when I feel like I'm just made of eggshells & razorblades myself, with a skin like rice paper. I have projects I've started now that I'm really unsure whether I want to continue, because I think it'll only bring grief to me & my friends. Whatever I do, I'm wrong & stupid.